Have you ever said, “I have had enough, Lord”? Yeah, me too.
Interestingly enough, I found out earlier in the week that someone in the Bible did too – Elijah, the Old Testament prophet. I guess that means we are in good company. To be honest, I was pretty shocked to find that in I Kings 19, especially from Elijah’s mouth. The account of Elijah’s faith in God and demonstration of God’s power to many unbelievers just one chapter prior has always been one of my favorite faith records in Scripture.
But shortly after this Elijah is running, literally for his very life. And so we find him in verse 4 saying, “I have had enough, Lord…take my life.” Thankfully I haven’t been to the point of also asking God to take my life. But maybe you have. (Does anyone else find it ironic he is running from someone who wants to take his life, but then asks God to take his life? I don’t get it!)
What I have found solace in this week is how God responds to Elijah’s honest comment to God. After Elijah lays down to sleep (to forget? to try and die? or just to regroup?), God sends an angel to minister to him. The angel touches him and says, “Get up and eat.” Elijah does as instructed and goes back to sleep (see I Kings 19: 5-6).
Again the angel (of the Lord) touches Elijah and says, “Get up and eat.” But this time he adds something more, which I find so telling. He says, “Get up and eat, for the journey is too much for you” (v. 7) Ah, yes. That weary journey is certainly too much, which is why I said in the first place, “I have had enough, Lord.”
How beautiful for God to recognize my frailty (and help me recognize it). How amazing that He would care enough to “touch me.” How profound He would (repeatedly) say to me, “Get up and eat.” Not of real food, like Elijah, but of The Bread of Life – Jesus – Who declared in John 6:35, “I AM the Bread of Life. Whoever comes to Me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in Me will never be thirsty.” My own manna in the wilderness.
On this adoption journey that is most certainly too much for me, I am deeply grateful for the Life-giving Bread to feast on daily.
May I be like Elijah and obediently eat and drink so that I might also travel to “the mountain of God” (v.8) on that sustenance for as long as it takes.
And may you, too, in whatever it is that you are saying, “I have had enough, Lord.”